1. LITTLE JOHN

I don't know where I'd be if I had never seen your face
And now that I have, I'll never be the same
I know that soon they will be taking you away
And I pray to God that I can let go

I close my eyes and hope this isn't real
Hold you one last time and savor this moment
Will I fade away like everybody else?
If I hide away will you ever find me?

Your eyes, your smile and all the things you do for me
I love you as if you were my own flesh and blood
Clinging desperately to all these memories
Because now that's all I have from you

I close my eyes and hope this isn't real
Hold you one last time and savor this moment
Will I fade away like everybody else?
If I hide away will you ever find me?

Can't stop fate.
But is it what you deserve?
They separate
Was justice served?

Your laughter... once healed me
But now it.... Just kills me to hear.

I close my eyes and hope this isn't real
Hold you one last time and savor this moment
Will I fade away like everybody else?
If I hide away will you ever find me?


2. LYSSOPHOBIA

It starts with only a glimmer
Of thought that make grown men shiver
And I hope that it won't take a hold of me
I sit alone and think of whether or not
That girl and I will be together
Even though I don't even know her name.

It's just another schizophrenic episode
A part of my paranoid personality
I start to crack and crumble into a
Complete psychotic mess.

My head can't hold onto all of these thoughts
All I want to do is
Make my mind shut down
Endless chatter - it's like my inner thoughts are a light
And the switch is a trigger
And it scares me that it's the only way to turn it off

It's just another schizophrenic episode
A part of my paranoid personality
I start to crack and crumble into a
Complete psychotic mess.

All that I want is to sleep
Let go of thoughts that torture me
Over and over they repeat
Until I am broken from defeat

Am I insane? Have I lost my mind?

It's just another schizophrenic episode
A part of my paranoid personality
I start to crack and crumble into a
Complete psychotic mess.


3. ON THE HILLSIDE

(Instrumental)


4. REFLECTION

Heaven is too far from me.... unfortunately
Oh what a wretched man I am - my soul damned
Take me to the fire again, purge my sin
Your rebuke is far overdue, it's way too late

My reflection never wanted to see me like this now
My reflection only wanted what was best for me
My reflection blindly believes I will get better
My reflection sees that I cannot escape this pattern

All this talk about me, what about you?
Your goals are delusions of grandeur, nothing more.
You're such a disappointment to me, why do I try?
I can't escape the fact that flesh is weak, but my spirit is willing.

My reflection never wanted to see me like this now
My reflection only wanted what was best for me
My reflection blindly believes I will get better
My reflection sees that I cannot escape this pattern


5. HOURGLASS

Every time that I run
Every one seems to walk in slow motion
Every second that slips away
Is like a drop of blood that drips away
Draining my life in slow motion
Eternity's knocking on my door
And I won't respond because
I have no more time to give.
Eternally waiting
What seems like forever in vain
And I cannot stand the silence

Time never waits for me
So why should I sit here patiently?
Another day gone by and all I think of
Is the hours I've wasted
But wait, maybe the thing I've missed
Is to take each day as an empty list
And then fill each line with one piece of patient wisdom.

Constancy escapes me
Instability will conquer all my existence
Life constantly berates me
Recidity will utter my lack of persistence

Time never waits for me
So why should I sit here patiently?
Another day gone by and all I think of
Is the hours I've wasted
But wait, maybe the thing I've missed
Is to take each day as an empty list
And then fill each line with one piece of patient wisdom.


6. COMFORT AND LIES

The bright screen captivates me
Illuminating everything
My ignorance is showing
Believing in what they say

My eyes are wide open
Awaiting your command

Committed and delusional
My vision is blurred to every truth
Stuck deeply in this false hope
The lie is much more comfortable, I'll admit.

Fill my head with nothing but flashing lights and sound
The less I think the more power you have over me.